As you come to recognize that the vibration of Soham is not your voice, but the voice of God, and you learn to watch the vibration of the speech of God within, you’ll notice that it’s one unbroken stream; the quality of consciousness at the point of individual identity and the quality of consciousness at the point of union with God are the same. It’s just your attention which interprets them differently.
Having received shaktipat, the transmission of God’s grace, the entire spectrum of attention becomes open to you. It’s just an issue of learning to listen. Listening is the key; meditate and listen to what’s inside.